Little Fighter

Well Melani is still about the same, no major changes have been made. She is on 100% oxygen and at 20 ppm on her INO and she can't seem to get her sats out of the 80's. But the good thing is that she is resting very comfortably and her blood gases have been good. They've started her on inhaled antibiotics just as a precaution but so far no change. I'm hoping that she is just really tired and will surprise us in the next few days and start coming up on her sats. She is also being really sedated just in case she is uncomfortable and also to keep her from fighting against the ventilator. I really do not want her to be put on the oscillator (which is a high frequency ventilator) because she absolutely hates it. It give lots of little breaths and it shakes her entire body. She has been on it 2 or 3 times already and I would really hate to see her put back on it BUT if it is necessary then so be it. =[ Anything to finally get her home with us.

Of course our other kiddos see how we go to the hospital everyday and they know (well our 4 year old) we are going to see their baby sister, but they have never brought up us leaving her at the hospital...well our daughter as we were driving away from the hospital said to us in a very concerned tone of voice "Wait, we forgot to bring Menali home with us". (She calls her Menali instead of Melani) I got a knot in my throat when she said it and then dad explained that we were going to bring her home but not yet. She just kept on saying "okay next time we come and see our angel baby she can come home with us?" So now we want her home even more because I know it is tiring for the kids to go sit there for hours at a time...and they don't come every time. Even at home when our 4 year old stands by the crib she kind of peers in and talks about how her baby sister is going to go "mimis" in her bed when she comes from the hospital. I cant wait until she finally does come home and the kids can actually see her!